For 30 weeks
Of my 20’s
I disappeared
Completely

Romantic dreams
Could wait it seemed
Or had they changed
And started coming true

How could freedom feel so arresting
And this city feel like a cell
And 30 weeks feel like a lifetime
And routine be worse than hell

So here’s to new beginnings
A toast that I can’t share
When the glass I hold is empty
And nobody’s here to care

My once excited starry eyes
You wouldn’t even recognize
A helpless wish that I resigned
I never tried

A waste of life a waste of time
What did I think I would find
At 25 I realized
I’d changed my mind

Here’s to new beginnings
A story I can tell
Of lives just moving forward
Of easy souls to sell

Twice a month I watched as more
Got thrown to the wolves
Handed lives of millions
And left there on their own

The halls are always deserted
Like the streets of an abandoned town
But the rooms are lit and the ghosts still sit
With their hollow eyes cast down

I know dozens of faces
There are several on each floor
But each of them is nameless
And fade when I pass the door

Promises of grandeur and
People that I never met
Lonely dark apartment
I never left

Selfish anti-socialite
Who’s to blame for my lost time
I didn’t think the fault was mine
I changed my mind

Here’s to new beginnings
Not a shallow fairy tale
Or a short and boring story
This time it’s for real

As light shines through my window
And time is mine to tell
To be a friend and lover
Save yourself